CHRISTIE PHANG♥

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Tuesday, 8 February 2011

So tonight , a storytelling time I guess. I just wanted to tell a story of a young girl and her life..... :D
So,there's this young girl , who actually tried super hard and went overseas to study. Name her Siti.(Ah I knw th name's like.... Hahah bt I guess it's simpler to name them then). She used to be the outgoing type. She had lots of friends last time. She made many friends. She was well known of having friends. After her Secondary one,she decided, having many friends aren't essential. She needed few real friends. She turned to a somehow-introvert person.

After years of leading her new way of life,Siti has 3 friends. Aminah,Yati and Nur. They were the best of friends. Siti had to go back to her hometown occasionally cos she lived alone there. Her parents are working at their hometown. So on long vacation, she had to go back for long time ,leaving her 3 friends behind . Initially she wasn't worried. She knew her friends would always be her friends.
One unfaithful month, when she went back for a long period of time , she seldom contact her friends. But then, she wasn't worried.
When she came back, everything seemed to be different. You can imagine how disappointed she felt to see them changed and now regard her as a stranger .
They quarreled, but end up alrite. She thought things were going to get back to it's original place, but it didn't . She hated Nur,cos she seemed to be intruding her life and friendship. She hated her , even if she didn't mean to hate her,she just can't control..
Day by day just passed like that. Siti actually learned to forgive and to convince herself that things would get back to how it was, when they were the best of friends. However , it wasn't. Siti just got better and better at pretending. She knew things weren't like before but she chose to keep mum and go with the flow. Whenever her 3 friends whisper to each other , she would began to feel paranoid. It's as if every single words that came out from her friends' mouths are words about her , even though she's not sure..she lived in fear everyday. There would be times when she actually felt that everything had returned back, but the next moment , she realised it was a wishful thinking of her own..
After weeks.. She actually forgave Nur. She loved her like she loved the rest.
The whispers still goes on but she ignored it. maybe in her heart, the wound isn't healed yet,but she acted as if it has. She kept everything inside her. She guard herself carefully so as not to let out her tail,the fact that she minds.
she tries to satisfy them, but they don't seem to be satisfied.
Sometimes she seemed to be at her wits end but she kept reminding herself to stay strong, and she gladly did.
She would just laugh when her friends laugh, so as to act as if she got the jokes too.
She seemed not to mind with all those whispers amongst them, but she does mind. They shared secrets before, but not anymore.
For the first time she actually realised how much they meant to her.. Not bcos she has no other friends, but because she loved them like her own family. She doesn't care even if they don't regard her as their family, what matters is that she did.
But then, somethings really can't go back to the way it was, so she decided to go on with life,go on with the flow, and to not care , and to keep putting on the mask she had put all this while.
I admire her courage at times. I think she is brave \(ˇ▽ˇ)/